Miracles and higher truths.

Vernon Howard

You need not strain and struggle to understand higher truths, you need only realize that you don't understand.  When you don't know something, and stick with that unknowing, there is no conflict.
And there is also the opening for understanding something higher. Conflict,pain, strain, falling downhill occurs when you don't understand something about life, but pretend that you do, grab your own solutions and call them higher answers.

Now, look at the amazing state of not knowing what to do with yourself and leaving it at that.  When you  don't know how to straighten out your life, when you have no idea of how to push away the worries of past and future, when you don't know that and stay with that, a fantastically marvelous miracle occurs.  And here it is:  What happens when you don't know and simply say, "I don't know," what happens is a falling away of falseness, of ridiculous effort, of vanity, of pretense.  When you are simply all alone with the fact that you don't know what to do about that difficulty, when you're all alone with that and don't fight to grab your own answer, the miracle occurs.  A spiritual change starts.

What happens

Charles Webster Leadbeater

C(harles) W(ebster) Leadbeater (1854 –1934) was an influential member of the Theosophical Society, author on occult subjects and co-initiator with J. I. Wedgwood of the Liberal Catholic Church. Originally a clergyman of the Church of England, his interest in spiritualism caused him to end his affiliation with the Church of England in favour of the Theosophical Society, where he became an associate of Annie Besant.
He became a high ranking officer of the Society, but resigned during 1906, after accusations that he had been engaging in mutual masturbation with teenage boys in his care. With Besant's assistance he was readmitted a few years later, and although similar rumours occurred throughout his career, Leadbeater's talents as a prolific author on occultism kept him an important presence in Theosophy until his death in 1934.